i've been haunted by similar nightmares for the past few nights.

What come out of my dreams was a realisation of what i can conclude as to be my greatest fear, a fear that i havent been ignoring, pretty much all my life. I've dreamed i was dying.

Well, dying is scary but death is not what made me jump out of my sleep and out of bed everytime with cold sweats.

but It's the fact that i dont think i have done enough to earn a place in heaven

I kept on dreaming that i'd say that i dont want to go when it was time. That itself was a really depressing thing. It's the fear of not getting a second chance when it matters the most.

women gets it easier.. heh.. lucky.